Just a few thoughts

Have lots of thoughts in my mind on a whole host of topics in the last few weeks but just haven't got the motivation,  inspiration or the emotional fuel to put those into words... On a somewhat related note... In life everything is about maximizing value or minimizing effort... Habits are to minimize cognitive effort, you do the things which don't really matter all that much in a repetitive way, because well its just easy to do it that way and theres no benefit of hyperoptimizing. Instead,  you focus your cognitive effort on more important things Frameworks and heuristics are to minimize compute effort. You can't think of all problems from first principles, so you go by things that you have formed in your brains as rules before,  so that you don't have to overspend compute effort unless you want to super optimize for accuracy Discipline and patience is an opportunity loss minimizing strategy. You don't want to give up on something that maybe working too soon ,and gi...

 In an earlier post ,  I had mentioned that maybe "I just love myself way too much, or rathet I love my own conception of my own self way too much :)" Too much is subjective but do i lke myself too much for my own good? Or to put that in past tense, have i been guilty of liking myself  or coneption of myself,  as I put it in that sentence, too much for my own good? Is that even possible? ........... What you are going to be tomorrow is a function of what you are today,  the actions you take today and a bit of luck and randomness, that can go either way.  But the actions that you take today aren't independent of what you are today either,  no matter how much one may think that " today is the first day of the rest of my life". More pertinent to the topic at hand,  if you like yourself "too much", then can your future really be that different from your present.  Sure there's a natural rate of change we are all comfortable with. But if that gradi...

Marked as time sensitive- the heading that is :) For in a few hours.... And well , because after all, " what the 41 year old Mr A" doesnt quite have the rizz of the 40 and 20. So what would the 40 year old me tell the 20 year old me, if the latter could have somehow miraculously time travelled for a bit to get some advise. With all the wisdom and the experiences since.  And with all the constraints of well Mr A. being Mr.A.  Some which the 40 year old Mr. A might be following,  and a lot he might not have. Well here's how the conversation might go: 1. Its been a very smooth 20 years of your life so far.  Consider yourself blessed. And have gratitude for it.  Knowing you,  you surely will.  The next 20 may not be that smooth. There will be more ups and downs. Nothing earth shattering, even though many things might feel that way during the moment itself,  just as it might even now for things far more meaningless.  Very little ever is earth shat...

Well, this is going to another of those posts which uses concepts from the world of finance and the world of probability to make generalized observations on life.  Dear reader of the blog,  you have already been forewarned :) So this is an insight which came to me while I was trying something at work.  It isn't any ground breaking insight ( some of these concepts are known in the world of finance and markets anyway) but, here, I am just trying to see if I can take away something more generalized for life as I see it. The world of investing,  trading and finance, is by its nature informationally fuzzy,  in the sense , that anything you know 100% for sure , is in all probability already priced in.  The challenge,  the joy,  and the rewards lie in figuring out something which you don't know for sure,  but yet can figure out with some probabilistic level of certainty.  And to some extent, this is true of life as well --- this part of figurin...

If 2024 was the " year of the DGAF" and 2023 " the year of no regrets ", the end of 2022 a time of inner peace , and 2021 , a year where a lot changed ( or did it really?), what about 2025? Its the year where I really felt a year older or maybe even more, no kidding- not that I don't feel time pass by in other years - but this year,  I really felt it.  Maybe its the psychological threshold of crossing 40. Maybe its the acceleration in curing of a whole spectrum of delusions  ( a process no doubt which happens over many years and maybe even decades) and how reality hits you. Does that last part mean I am less escapist than ever? Probably not,  i would still think.  Its one thing to just "know" the realities of life, and another thing to "problem solve" it,  if you get what I mean. This is even assuming the "problem set" remains static , and new problems which you think you need to solve for,  are not added to the list. Which may not ...

 One of the criticisms of the AI models ( LLMs) of today is the problem of hallucinations. Which apparently really boils down to the models seeing spurious correlations and patterns where they don't exist and "filling in" when they aren't sure or don't have a certain answer.  But is the human mind really different? Are we that immune to hallucinations? Not in the literal or schizophrenic sense of the word. But in seeing patterns where none exists? Unlike the AI hallucinations , the patterns that the human mind sees have some in built biases. We are simply prone to seeing patterns we want to see. The AIs do not , atleast,  as yet have a want function! This is especially true if you are the sort of person who like yours truly at some level,  believes that the world is conspiring to help you ( rational mind: yeah right!), eventually helping make sense of it all and who thinks everything happens for a reason.  After all, seeing or seeking patterns is a good and a ea...